Ritual - Abject Beauties

throughout the various ages of the universe

many have tried to find the definitive cure to our condition

cynics among us would draw attention to the ‘fact’

that this has been to utterly no avail?

it’s the happiest things that make me cry

it’s pain that makes me feel alive

don’t need a reason to live

or to spit

or to smile

yeah I lost all of mine to the endless

sublime

dead light

at the end of a life

that will not reconcile

if you’re listening

I love you

for the rest of my life

I do not practice evolution

this thing just seemed confusion

my mirror points a finger saying

bitch I’m still-livin

I laugh and wonder why just for an instant like forgiveness

take a moment to reflect amidst survival of the fittest

still living what is this

hustling that suffering

like it’s fucking oxygen

breathe it out

breathe it in

universe don’t give a shit

laugh and wonder why just for an instant

what is this

it’s the happiest things that make me cry

it’s pain that makes me feel alive

all these feels that i’m tagging up

baggin up

making so sure

not to stare too deep into the feels cause they cut

I see just one grain of truth just this just wish I could be with you

I miss not being smothered by all I miss

I miss your smile I miss your kiss

please just remember me happy

I try my best to do the same for you